So the Year has Ended

I have been seeing people ask “What have you learned, done, etc. in 2018?” I have also seen people post about their 2018 journey. For me 2018 was an interesting and weird year. There just was a lot of weird energy, I can’t really explain it. It was also pretty hilarious, I think I laughed the most this year. (Shout out to the memes). A lot of events and changes occurred in my personal life. Some of them were just plain odd. For the most part, all of them were necessary. They thought me something new or reinforce something I already knew. In addition, at the beginning of 2018 I spoke some things into existence which came to fruition. No, I didn’t write all of them down or consciously focused on them 24/7. I just said them to myself, sometimes half jokingly. Then when opportunities arose that were related to what I wanted or said at the beginning of the year, I took them. The most I did between saying what I wanted and the opportunities coming my way was envisioning and preparing myself for the opportunities. 2017 and 2018 were times of constant transitions, growth, and new perspectives. Some of which you can read about in my past posts.

I think the main thing I got out of 2018 was a deeper understanding and acceptance of myself, past, present, and future. I also took on challenges, such as becoming comfortable with vulnerability, which aided in my understanding. Nostalgia was strong for me this year. A lot of things just started making perfect sense. I started back tracking, connecting, and lining up foreshadowing events to my present. I had numerous “Ah Ha,” moments. More realistic expectations for the future came about during my “Ah Ha,” moments and epiphanies. I realized certain things are not going to happen anytime soon or at the exact time I want them to because I’m not ready for them. When I am truly and fully ready for them then they will come my way or I would be in better position to seek them. If they come any earlier due my intervening, they may not be exactly I actually want. I learned to accept certain things/people/situations/etc. as they are and let go what I wanted them to be/stop trying to change them.

Also, I reached a higher level of being unbothered. In the beginning of 2018, I just stopped caring about minor things that was not worth my energy and maintained that level of being unbothered throughout the year. This helped a lot with self-soothing myself whenever I got anxiety. Another thing that helped with my anxiety was focusing on and remaining in the present moment. I was pretty proud of myself for being able to calm myself down and self-soothe whenever I experienced anxiety this year. In past years, I was pretty good at it but this year I was able to it more efficiently.  I think I also reached a higher level of calmness this year.

For 2019 I’m speaking into existence (at least for now, I may add more stuff as the year goes on):
Deeper level of vulnerability
Take on more ventures and challenges
Write more
Do more creative projects and contributions
Attending the B2K millennium concert (depending on ticket prices)

Time to Focus on You:

What are you speaking into existence for 2019?

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